everything that we used to have is gone now, not even photographs, just blurred memories left for us to remember through time. one question keeps pulsing through me like i'm in need of the answer, will you remember me? we are all scared of something. i guess i can say my biggest fear is someone like you forgetting about someone like me. but there's hope somewhere and faith that my name will somehow, maybe someday make its way back into your mind, maybe as you're passing by a forest or something and see three large rocks that'll remind you of the place we used to meet. i passed by that place the other day and held my breath, i don't know why.. maybe it's because it felt like my lungs were gonna come out through my mouth and my heart .. well i don't know where my heart is anymore, it's been misplaced but if i did have it, maybe it would have exploded or something.
the hardest part about moving on is forgetting the mistakes you made, why that someone you're missing so bad is out of your life & how it's so fucking impossible to get them back in there. lightning doesn't strike the same place twice & the most beautiful things in life only happen once. they tell you inhale/exhale, but how many times do i have to do this to calm down?
it's scary how we had everything & now it's all gone.
i saw you yesterday for the first time in forever and all i wanted to do was talk to you, tell you everything, ask you how you were & catch up but there's a fighter inside of me, forcing me to ignore you, to give you dirty looks, to talk shit about you to everyone that was around me, reminding me of all the things you said to me, and how you're nothing.
"waste", i guess that's all i'll ever be.
everything, that's what you are to me.
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